I think I might start posting personal post here as well.
I used to have this as strictly my trich blog, and have a separate personal, but too many people I know in real life who I tend to blog about follow my personal, so I might start writing those here.
I also never post on here anymore, so that will give me reason to.
My hair would look like this if I just didn’t pull.
Sitting on the train
Everyday I have a train ride home from my college that takes anywhere from an hour and twenty minutes, to about an hour forty.
Anyway, I get really bored, so it is a huge trigger time. So I was pulling and I found a particularly crinkly hair, pulled it, and then was playing with it in my fingers, like I usually do, and I thought “How do people leave these hairs in their heads?”
I am not wishing trich on anyone, but just, to me the only way I could imagine not pulling the really textured hairs is if I never touch them, see them, or know that they’re there. If I touch one while running my fingers through my hair, I have to find it. I will spend up to fifteen to twenty minutes until I find the hair that I felt.
I don’t know why I can’t stand the idea of leaving those hairs, but feeling one and trying to not pull it makes me shake and cry. I just can’t do it.
My trich has been really bad recently.
Way too much stress. Just, my life has been going to shit financially, and I don’t know how to fix it. I just got my first job under a year ago, so my savings account was less than impressive, then I got ticketed, got my license taken away, and have spent over $1,000 working to get it back, and the process still isn’t over.
And with paying my tuition bills I have had no way of putting any real amount of money back into it. So, I guess I’ll be working all summer and spending none of it. Yay.
I found a huge gap in my eyelashes while doing my make-up this morning
I nearly started crying. I hate myself for doing this.
So I really feel like gray hair is so beautiful. I have always wanted it, but I’m terrified that it will make my bald spot more obvious. Like, I have really naturally vibrant red hair and I feel like the color definitely distracts from the thinning/bald spot.